Saturday, April 16, 2011

Don't forget to Smell Beneath the Roses




It was the grass. Not the pleasant feeling grass underfoot tickling between my toes or magnificence rolling green hills in the distance. It wasn't prairie grass swaying in the wind like sea waves--although seeing that can be a somewhat religious experience too. No, it was sharp thick up-pricked blades in clear obstruction of my vision on the manicured lawn of the Sinnissippi rose garden, as I fell into their cushion. Tickled to death by my three-year-old just as the sun was beginning to set, I flopped down, rolling my head to the side and slacked my jaw in mock defeat. When I reopened my eyes after a single moment of stolen rest I saw them-- really saw them: wide, rich, earthly bodies-- each unique--bursting up from the soft ground around where my head crushed down their neighbors. On my cheeks, lips, eyebrows and head I felt their mighty presence while my nose-- already spoiled by roses all around-- took in their luxurious fragrance.
I spent most of this day at a craft fair where some of the best artists in the United States were gathered, displaying their fantastical wares of creativity; I saw things that only appear in dreams, fantastical manifestations of genius minds and yet not one creation there could begin to rival the earth's own ingenuity in decorating herself. Donning billions of intricate individual spears of emerald, each with its own pattern, size, and ability to breath and rejuvenate, the earth moves in splendor, her own hand of wind rustling and smoothing the folds of her extravagant attire. That is to say nothing of the classy way that the she subtly perfumes herself with a finer fragrance than that of any rose in the garden (we know because we have spent a lot of time smelling every single variety this summer) with these soft prickling gems so that the lowliest of creatures-- grubs, beetles and earthworms-- can live in a splendid heaven of scent.
I am not the only one to have found a secret glory in grass. Walt Whitman, for one, understood how complex and elegant can be the world of grass. Rachel Carson too, learned and imagined through watching the grass grow. Sadly, grass gets a bad rap, as it is the yard cover of choice in Suburbia, Everystate, USA. Grass is a trademark component of overly-groomed micromanaged yards, parks, and properties that tie back, cut down, bind up or burn down the natural landscape in favor of some ideal of trimmed green predictable and sterile scape. However, while I can easily agree with many of those sentiments, I feel that as a helpless plant, grass has been overused, misused, and abused by our culture with little to no fault of its own. On the contrary, its overuse, as with so many things in the world, stems from its very pleasant nature, from its beauty, veratility, flexibility, and predictability. Grasses of all kinds are extraordinary plants and even the most mundane of grasses that fill our eyeballs everyday to the brim with their preppy pristine greenness have a quality of magnificence and majesty when examined--or nay, experienced-- up close. Even corporations know it. In a depressing scheme to bottle and sell the awakening glory of a blade of grass, a person can buy a "grass" scented perfume. If big-box brother can see it from the stuffy 27th-floor office in the sky far removed from any grass anywhere, you too should see it clearly every day.
Grass is sweetly scented poetry that any person can enjoy. It is free and abundant. So take the time to calm your ever-bustling feet and stop a minute or two to lower yourself and smell beneath the roses.

Two years of Absense...


Two years have elapsed since I last posted on this blog. Well, that's not entirely true.... I think I may have made some posts sometime last year, later choosing to erase them. So, wonder where I've been? Well, I've been around. I actually started and kept up two other blogs for a while last year but in the end, here I am, back at home where I have returned, like a salmon swimming upstream, to spawn.  But I don't die. I just come home again and again. I hope you enjoy my next outburst of mental offspring!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Home Again

And back to the grind! It's like we learned nothing from our trip; Jeremy and I are both back to going full-speed and never seeing each other, Annika is falling apart at the seams and no one is holding up.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Travelogue

Don't worry folks:grandparents and those visiting this blog for updates on our trip, I'll keep 'em coming too. Here we go

Annika is still cute. She is talking like crazy. She has an amazing imagination, a love for animals, a never-ending store of energy, and sweetness all over!

I got to share some special bonding with her tonight at bedtime. Lately she has taken to snuggling in our bed for a bit if she doesn't fall right asleep when she nurses. Sometimes she falls asleep while we snuggle, sometimes she gets transfered to her bed awake. Anyway, tonight she asked for snuggles so we laid together, just inches between our faces. She would start to drift off and then POP, open her eyes and look again to be sure I was still there. As she began to settle in, she took one side of my head in her little hand and then started softly brushing my hairline and ear so very gently with her other hand so sweetly. Finally, she settled down by worrying my lip-ring in her fingers.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

What Happened

She put her pacifier in his mouth; he pretended to sleep.

She brought her cozy to his arms and covered him with a blanket.

She walked away, as he pretended to snooze.  She turned around and checked him: 

"Is he sleeping?"

He slept.

She walked back, looked closely and then made her move.

Having tucked him neatly into his bed, she hurried to the contraband computer and started typing wildly!


(The master-manipulations of a two-year old)

In the Spirit of Christmas

Happy Holidays, folks!  The Christmas season is really upon us now, isn't it?  How does Christmas feel away?  

It really feels like... nothing.  

Every year around this time I do some pondering on the "feeling" of the holidays.  You're lucky enough to be able to go back and see what my thoughts were last year, as this blog is officially more than one year old! Anyway, this year I ponder the holidays from a totally new perspective-- the perspective of not participating.  

It's so weird.  What is so weird about it is that it's not weird at all (if that makes sense).  I keep forgetting it's almost Christmas.  If I were home, I would be in full-gear preparation mode, buying or making gifts, thinking about what food I am making for the gatherings and how we'll make it to both families's festivities.  I would be laboring over lists: what to buy for who, who to invite to a cookie-exchange (I swore last year that I'd have one this year-- goes to show how much life surprises you!), and writing out Christmas cards that would never make it to the mail.  These are the things I would be doing today, on the 17th of December (not to mention celebrating my dad's birthday-- HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD) if I were in Rockford right now. 

 Instead, every once in a while during a day I surprise myself randomly by thinking out of nowhere, "Huh! It's almost Christmas!"  
 
Despite the fact that we are only one week out from The Day, this morning was like any other lately.  I awoke in a haze, slightly grumpy after nursing Annika twice in the night and then being awoken by her incessant "MOMMY!" mixed with fuss-cries at 6 in the morning.  I groggily dragged my sulky body out of bed as my muscles tried to resurface from the slack slovenness that muscles experience only in the throes of deep sleep and fumbled across the room to haul her heavy body from bed.  Feeling like a cigarette (but I don't smoke anymore) I warmed up just ever so slightly to the day by hearing Jeremy downstairs knocking pots and pans around as the smell of coffee (my replacement addicton) wafted upward.  However, even after mawing down a Mary's Market vegetable muffin (miss you, Mary's!), toasty papas-- compliments of Jeremy, and slurping on some rich Costa Rican cafe con leche, I found myself irritable and aggrivated.  

I washed the dishes (dishes also follow you wherever you may go), swept the fireplace out, started the laundry( laundry follws you wherever you may go) and finally pushed my pasty self out into the sunshine, where I immediately started to feel better.  Annika and I tried to call the brown cow to the fence to eat some grass, we walked up and down the long driveway, we wound a grass crown around my head (she wouldn't wear it), and called "PEE-DOE, VENGA PEE-DOE!" (Pinto, come Pinto!).  It wasn't until about 10:00 this morning that I thought, while walking barefoot up the driveway, "huh, it's snowing in Rockford-- and it's almost Christmas."

Yes, as you imagine, Costa Ricans celebrate Christmas too, from colored lights and tinsel to Christmas trees and  fireworks (every night).  Christmas is as much a hullabaloo here as in most places.  But as tourists and loners, we are exempt.  Without snow, we have no Christmas spirit and the local holiday spirit doesn't really reach us outside the ads at the grocery store or the 25' Coca-Cola Christmas tree just outside San Jose.  

So this year we experience an existential version of Christmas and this year I understand that every experience is relative to a person's perspective.  A tradition that has been repeated every year for 27 years of my life is suddenly somehow absent and missing (but not missed) at the appointed time.  

But it's not completely gone.  We are still making plans for Christmas-- just not the typical plans. Without our friends and family, we have a lot of freedom in how we choose to celebrate this year.  So we have decided (quite wisely, methinks) to celebrate with some other of our relatives-- squirrel monkies-- on the beaches of the Pacific Ocean just west of here.  

I don't think we will do gifts-- although we might do something special for Annika, not sure what yet-- and there most certainly won't be a Christmas tree in our living quarters.  But we will wake together as a family Christmas morning and feel warm and cozy.  We will have something special in our hearts as we enjoy the holiday and think about all of you at home.  We will rub our eyes-- in a happy way this time-- and slip outside to sip refrescas de moras o naranjas on the beach, hiding our postres from the monkeys nearby while the sun spills down on our faces and the ocean water nibbles our toes.  

Now that's the Christmas Spirit I like!  Stress-free, cheap, and rewarding! Anyone want to join us?  I'll book you.
 

Friday, December 12, 2008

Bunk

Deadlines and Homework follow you wherever you may go too.